Hmmm how am i going to start. Meet my close cuz today and he told me this from his first impression. I look lost. That word really struck me. Am i really lost. Or am i. I have this feeling that i cant be bother wf life anymore. Watever shit life is giving me, i just cant be bothered. Just waiting for school to start thats all. My love life goes down the drain. Alot of unhappy memories and just which i can forget abt them. Should i just forget abt them. Like the saying goes don find the ONE but instead be the ONE. So thats one thing out of my mind. Actually that is a large think out of my mind. All this while i been wooing gurls, dating them and most of the time it lead to failure. All this while that is the only think that keep me going on, make me enthusiastic about the day. Just for clarification, that is wat guys do most of the time so it is not just me. Since im giving that up, im lost. I must find a new purpose. A new purpose to wake me up in the morning, a new purpose to drive me or motivate me. Basicly a new purpose to live.